Day 2 of trying to be a better person.  Concentrating on being present and not letting my mind wander.  It is hard to stay focused.  Still feeling a bit ashamed, but that feeling is slowly passing as I try to focus on being a better person.  What exactly does that entail.  Being a better person?  Do I treat my boss better, do I treat our clients better?  Am I to be more kind to myself?  I see postings from friends on FB and I see their successes and their family life.  I compare myself to them and wonder where I went wrong.  How did I wind up alone?  Have I made bad decisions?  Have I brought people into my life that held me back?  I think a lot of past relationships and why they have ended.  I am starting to realize that I did just that. I brought people into my life who did not want to be in commited relationships.  I spent many years with people who had no intention of sticking around.  I should not have been crushed then when they left.  But I was.  I am trying to figure out just why I brought these people into my life.  Why would I want to be with people who were not good for me?  Did I push the relationship?  Did I push myself on people who did not want to be there?  I need to focus on the present and let the universe bring me what I need.  It sounds so hokey, but it is helping.